Wispers in my Ear

In the not so long ago, I nearly lost my life, but in that losing, I seem to have found a new one.

Never have I been a poet, nor a writer of any sorts.
But for awhile now I have been talking to myself on paper, not a big deal for most people I would imagine, but definitely out of my comfort zone to be sure.
I write these for myself, but perhaps will share with someone who may ever stumble upon this page and is inclined to read.

I found that sharing is a very good thing :-)

My Homecoming Moon

My Homecoming Moon
Dec.08 2008 5:30 a.m. - I am filled with wonder and love

Tuesday, August 7, 2012

-Words to the Soul-

When the world is done and gone, when storms no longer howl, where will be your soul? Where will be your life? The ones that do not yet see, the ones that do not yet know are lost in time to the forever of darkness of what can never be. How to get to God how to get to where the light is forever shining amidst the fibers of our beings?

Take it all in, breathe deep and feel him there, it is within you, next to you and all around. There is nowhere that God is not, nowhere that he cannot be found. But you must have the eyes within your heart to see what stands before you, next to you and within. The journey is not long to find it, not one step be taken and it can still be found. How many empty steps do those people take that fitfully wander off to find what is not there. The answers to it all, for they had it all along, they themselves carried the words and knowing within their souls.

When knowing over takes the soul and longing to go home is strong, seek no further for you are there, it is but a hairs breath away, it is you and within you and without. Lost not are you nor have ever been. Wandering is only an imagining for you are always right where you are supposed to be, you are right where the force of life has a place for you. Heed not other wanderings within the mind for they are not what is real, only false projections that cannot be. Lean into what IS now and the present will make for the pathway to a great future, as expanding the heart is the only trueness of what can ever really be done. Shrivel and die on the vine if you must but glory and light await all that only need look beside them, inside of them and to the heavens above.

Monday, July 23, 2012

When we cross over to the other side there is a knowing beyond anything we can imagine here. There is so much to look forward to...
the Universe is an awesome place!

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

When the wordless words from God fill my soul, I stumble within myself no more.

When the Love Of God fills the essence of me to the brim, I am satisfied to the greatest degree.
I say this to you fellow traveler, - Look nowhere else but within your own heart. Look to see what lingers there,- it is you, it is me,- it is the oneness of the Universe, all the stars and elements of the galaxy of life.

In the stillness of your heart, in the emptiness there it can be found, has always been, and will always be...it is the silence of God speaking to you. There has always been this speaking, there has always been this silence, they are the one and the same; they are waiting for you now.

Be still of heart and listen...God, the Source of all, is truly a patient lover.

Take a deep breath,... you are home.

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

May 21- 2012 Death Experience Show - A glimpse from both life and death. by caribbeanradioshow on Blog Talk Radio

Its been awhile since I have been here. Yet my life and thoughts have been very active in many ways. I do not know how many people find there way here but if you do so and may be led to join us on Monday May 21 I would love to know you are out there.
I will be doing a radio interview with Rudi Rudenski at this time on Carribeanradioshow on the internet. Rudi has an interesting radio show about something all of us are interested in ....the possibilities of what, and where is life for us all, after death. I will share my story.

Click On The Link Below -

Death Experience A glimpse from both life and death. 05/21 by caribbeanradioshow | Blog Talk Radio

Monday, January 9, 2012

It is almost one year to the day since my last post. My how my life has grown and gone in that time.
No one may ever stumble upon this page so for me alone I write, reaffirming the wonders of my life and all that has unfolded within my soul. It would take hours upon hours to fill in the words that have been the makeup of this last year. Yet the crux of it all as been the sharing and learning with others, the lessons of life that have been put before us in many ways.

Now almost 1,200 of my books are in the hands of others and being shared as I have asked be done. The people that I have met and exchanged with in thought and heart and word, have only given me the strength of conviction that what I am learning within my soul is right and for the betterment of me and those I will meet ahead.

Yes the past year has been good to me yet filled with ups and downs of how it all goes. I will try to visit here more often and post what fills my heart. To those if any that visit this way, thank you for reading, thank you for allowing me to share.
God Bless us all.

Monday, January 10, 2011

Small Miracles, Big Lesson

Ok Ok, so now my big 15 minutes of fame has happily come and gone ( sigh of relief!)
I was paired with two other people on this week's episode of Bio Channel's Beyond and Back, - Anthony and Matt. I have not met Matt but Anthony and I have been emailing for awhile before the show aired. He is a strong and wonderful man who now is so full of God and Love, it is evident in every post he makes online. It was an honor to be paired with them both.

Last night when I went to bed after seeing my segment air on national TV, I was happy that it turned out as well as it could for only having about 15 minutes to explain something that even an original 4 hour interview did not even cover.

When I went to bed later I was hoping again with my heart, that somehow I had done things "right" even though it may have not been the best I would have liked to of seen......did I say all I needed to to touch someone, to let them know how deep my emotions were about what had happened to me during my NDE? Perhaps I just over think it all way to much sometimes, but it is an honest account of how I felt.

About 3 am I awoke and thought I heard someone say to me......"We need to talk" of course no one was there, and when I sat up in bed, realized that perhaps I just needed to" listen" to who or what was doing the talking. For about an hour I sat in the dark of night, feeling a glowing warmth within my room, I felt it fill my soul and comfort me in such a soothing and wonderful way. I think I got the message that things had gone as they should.......I had been leaning into this knowing for so many months now, why then had I faltered in my trust on that?

Soon sleep came to me, and when I awoke I still felt the loving comfort that had been with me a few hours before, hmmm, guess I didn't imagine it after all. So padding my sleepy morning way to the computer room, I sat and opened up my inbox.

There before me was one of the most awesome letters that anyone has ever written to me. Totally confirming that by sharing my story, writing my book, had indeed been the right thing to do. And this was not someone who had seen the Bio Channel the night before either. She instead had been a woman who a short time ago had entered our store, and was actually rather abrupt with me concerning my book. I won't go into details but the crux of it was, I remembered her when she wrote to me, because of that incident. I must admit, she probably would have been one of the last people I would have pegged for ever getting back to me, yet here she was giving me such a treasure within her words!

Through soggy tears I then went to open up my online version of the "Daily Word" which I look at everyday before I start my normal routine. This is what it read:

Monday, January 10, 2011
New Dawn
The light of God dawns in me today.
Each morning is a sacred opportunity to begin life anew. Before I rise, I spend a moment in appreciation of and reverence for life. The fact that I've awakened tells me that life has yet another opportunity for me.
I walk my chosen path of righteousness, which means right thinking and right understanding. This day, I choose to share my joy and shine my light brightly as the light and love of God dawn in me.
I also see a dawning of greater spiritual understanding for all people. Though we may be on different paths, we are all expressions of God. Because the love of God lives in me, I share this love with others unconditionally.

But the path of the righteous is like the light of dawn, which shines brighter and brighter until full day.--Proverbs 4:18


For the outside reader, it may not seem like much, but to me, who had prayed long and hard before closing her eyes last night, that I be given some sort of knowing if was headed in the right direction or not.................this was more than enough to let me know. It is amazing how the Universe, - God - Creator, can answer us back in so many different ways, and yet if we are not "looking" how will we ever see? How many times in my life had I probably been answered and I was too busy looking for major signs, and not the small miracles that normal incidents in life seem to bring.

I may not have smiled on TV, as I know talking about God for the first time in my life to someone other than a close friend, and doing that talking on National TV, - was a bit emotional for me to say the least! But now I know for sure, that even through my tears, some will feel what I was in the greatest of LOVE trying to say.

Tonight I have much to be grateful for, new people crossed my path today in way of their emails and words. I have had hopes that sharing and giving back some of what my heart has processed over the past two years to others, might also help them along their own journey. I am getting glimpses that this has happened. Now I know that sleep will come easy and long tonight.

Thank you for allowing me to share, thank you God for showing me a few more miracles!

Good night.

Sunday, January 9, 2011

Today is rather an unsettling day for me yet in a good way. During my coma, and NDE I was somehow led to know that I would be sharing my experience with many many people. I didn't really know what that meant at the time. At first I was bursting with energy and the feeling I had to tell everyone I came across about my wonderful experience and what all I had learned. Was this how I was suppose to do it? But later after settling down a bit, and also being told by family that they would commit me (only kidding) if I didn't calm down, I learned to let it all settle within my soul and let the natural course of things unfold around me.

Tonight my interview will air on the Bio channel. On the one hour program will be a segment of me, just talking about it all and how it has affected me and my life. How that happened over this past two year odyssey of mine (the Bio interview) is in itself a long story, but happen it did.

As I was leaving Atlanta, and flying home from my taped interview last April, all the insecurities that were somewhere inside of me came rushing to the forefront of my mind. Did I look foolish? did I say the right things? I cried too, in part because of the emotions of reliving it all again, and in part because I thought I had somehow let God or Spirit down in some way. I have prayed about this many times, and acknowledged the fact that with God guiding me, I must have said what was meant to be said. And then the guiding of the editing and production people would also happen as it was meant to be. Even knowing this though, I have still fallen victim to the normal insecurities of my soul.
So I now let go again, and know that the day will unolfd as it is meant to do. The appointed time will happen for my little segment and life will go on. I place my trust in knowing that all will be as it is meant to be. And if it appears foolish or ditzy, well heck, it will only be in front of a few million people, nothing to sweat about! :-)

But pushing those crazy little tidbits of insecurities aside, I get back to the strength in trusting in God, knowing that my heart and life are now being led, and that I was truly suppose to share the wonderful gifts and insights that I was graced to know.

The past two years have been for me a wonderful journey of sharing with and meeting new people. The very people who may of otherwise just come in and out of my life for an instant during the daily course of living. I wrote a book ( that in and of itself has been almost beyond my wildest imaginations)Yet now, comes the opening of hearts, the exchange of good feelings, and the warmth of souls as sharing occurs.

Yes I am so very blessed to have been given a second chance. I will not waste it with petty insecurities or hiding behind myself anymore. I place my trust in God who has given me the words, taken me by the hand and is leading down a path I have never traveled before. All is as it should be.

It doesn't get any better than that!

Thursday, December 30, 2010

What Else Can I Say?

Its not quite the New Year yet, but figured since tomorrow night I will be doing the traditional closet cleaning out, (something I started doing over the past several New Years eves) I wanted to write a bit now, before the year closes forever.

I have so very much to be Thankful for, I am not really sure where to start. Outwardly my life has gone on pretty much the same these past two year since my accident and NDE. I live in the same town, run the same business, do basically the same daily things that I did before. But somehow something very profound has changed for me....on the inside. I am not really sure where all this is going, nor do I want to ponder it all very much either. Sometimes the more we try to figure things out....the more the answers of any kind elude us. Or at least that it how it is for me.

Since this past Sept. and the self printing of my book, I have had the opportunity to share with over 400 people, and actually let them know some of what had been to me, the most private of thoughts. Instead of being ridiculed, or laughed at, or brought down in some way, I found instead so very many people who were also hungry to share, some of their private thoughts as well. In sharing my experience, I have been sharing my soul with others.

I was asked by someone close to me if I thought I would ever get repaid for all the money I put out to have the books produced. Yet in not quite 3 months the donations people lovingly gave allowed me to reorder more as replacements for those given out, and the exchange of feelings and conversations with others could never be measured in any dollar amount. My investment has repaid me in a much greater way than more monies ever could.
If any of you people that have graciously allowed me to share with you via that book, find your way to this page, I guess right now I don't know what else to say but Thank You very much, Thank you from the bottom of my heart.

I wish for us all, a very blessed New Year, with open eyes to see,what miracles surround us, and open hearts to love, just a bit more than we have before. We can do no more than this, for in that we will be guided as we need to be.

Yes, Happy New Year, and lots and lots of Love. :-)

Sunday, November 28, 2010


Well its a few days after Thanksgiving. Yet for me somehow the past two years have been a daily Thanksgiving of my heart. God gave me back my breaths, - my life. How then can I not dedicate every breath and every second of that new life back to him?
It has been two years since my accident and in that two years more has transformed in my soul and life, than in all the years of my life gone by. How special the world is to me now, how wonderous are the days I live, even when they are but everyday workings and routines. Yes, so much to be Thankful for, so much I feel as if I am bursting to say. But for now, I will count my blessings, give thanks for this moment, and go forward with this new day.

If you stop for just a brief second, and still your heart, perhaps in the stillness of the moment you can see the sparkle of life again. I know that it works for me. That in and of itself brings a state of Thanks to my very soul.

Yes Thanksgiving is a good time, Thanksgiving for me now, is everyday. God Bless us all.

Sunday, October 31, 2010

We look not at what can be seen but at what cannot be seen; for what can be seen is temporary, but what cannot be seen is eternal.--2 Corinthians 4:18

I will never be able to "prove" what I experienced during my coma and subsequent experiences, but all the proof I ever need lies within my own heart, and I can ask for no more than that.

A new life has been mine now for almost two years, I give thanks for each and every one of those days. Today is no exception.

Thursday, August 26, 2010

While I Was Out . . .

During my near death experience I was told that I would be sharing my story with others, and now this is my attempt to do so. I am not a professional author, just one ordinary person who was somehow allowed to have a very extraordinary experience - several of them!

If you have read my short story and would like to post any comments here, I would love to hear from you. I have already had such wonderful exchanges with so many people that I have met during my sharing of this journey.
Also, I hope you feel led to pass this along to someone that may be in need of some spiritual reflections. And if you would like more copies or would like to read my story for the first time you can contact me at itsluckie@msn.com

You can also post comments at WhileIWasOutAJourney.blogspot.com

Tuesday, July 6, 2010

So many months have passed. Yet the learning grows with each new day. My thoughts have taken many directions over those months, in a forward fashion to be sure.
I had been "told" while in my coma, that I would be sharing with many, and would find myself doing thigs I have never done before, with talents I did not know I had. That fact seems to be slowly becoming a reality now, and I watch in amazment and gratitude as it unfolds. Too much to write about here, nor the need to do so, but it has happened and I again give Thanks for what has been and will be.

Summer is here and my heart is blooming with so much. Each day is a gift that I treasure and tuck away inside my being, knowing that my store house of treasures is becoming very full. The wonderful thing is, each day is a treasure for us all, 24 hours to be shared with the universe and the ONE who made it.

Today is my birthday. Funny how that has lost meaning to me now somehow. For now I feel in many ways, that each day is like that special feeling you had as a child when your birthday rolled around. For a brief time we would feel loved, and special somehow, because the day was ours. Birthdays are magic for children, and now, for sure, every day is magic for me.
So.... Happy Birthday to me, and Happy day to everyone.....a day to celebrate being alive!

Saturday, January 23, 2010

Well the new year has begun. The past few weeks have found me going over the journey of the past year, wondering what to do now with my journaling, my learning, and my growth. I have decided, for perhaps for the benefit of no one else but me, to try and put some of that past year into words.

I have never been comfortable with seeing my inner thoughts somehow become concrete in the form of written word. But having been out of my comfort zone for many months now, in many arenas, it seems to have helped give me the resolve to give it a try, to capture my journey, so that I may share with others. It is exciting and daunting, at the same time.

So happy new year to me, Thank God I have been given this extra past year of life. I give thanks and am grateful for what ever life I may still be graced to have.

And I say blessings to womever passes this way and is led to read my words here.

I may not have the answers, but I do have the Knowing, not faith, but the Knowing that we are indeed, - truly loved.

Monday, June 29, 2009

Tiny Miracle at Art Walk, Large Joy

I had not many thoughts when waiting on one our last customers of the day.
She wanted to look at items inside a few locked jewelry cabinets, and so I obliged. Finding her treasure the dark haired woman worked her way to the sales counter, and a husband who at the time was being waited on by my sister. He joined his wife while she paid for her purchase.

How the conversation began is gone to me now. So many people travel through the store each day, and this weekend was one of our busiest of the year with Art Walk just about to come to an end. It seemed as if the seconds stood still, but yet all transpired quickly. One comment led to another, and I found out, in one heart stopping moment, ... the man across the counter from me, had been one of the two paramedics that freed me from my car that fateful Nov. day.
What are the chances of that?

This man and his wife traveled almost 150 miles into the mountains to enjoy the day, they did not know me or anything about me. Out of all the stores, or people they could stop to chat with, it was us. How many people came and went through our store the past three days that we never did that with?.......Many, many. The town had been filled with tourists.

I cannot explain fully the intense emotions that came forth from somewhere deep inside myself. This man, and his wife, could have come into our store, purchased their goods and left, all of us never knowing that our paths had certainly crossed before.
So miraculous is the weaving of fate!

We exchanged stories for such a brief time, as they had to leave, and make the two hour drive back to the Springs. I had and still have so many questions.
He found out the dog he knew had been in the accident, and bolted after the crash, had been found. Also, that I had survived, for he never found out the outcome of either.
Just how do you thank someone who in the course of doing his daily job, helped to change your life forever? ( and also save it!)
They say they will be back in two weeks, oh how I hope so.

For one brief moment I could again see the weaving of lives and fate. What a wonderful artist the Creator is, moving us all as we need to be, and giving us the chance to "know" or not, by how we keep our spirit open to receive.

Thank you so much from this grateful heart. There is a reason this happened so hopefully there will be more to say about this encounter soon!

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

Monday Night and Thoughts of God

The words will come when they are meant to
Will come when you are near.
I will hear them in your whispers, silent whispers in my ear.

Quietly, you call to me,
I stop, and turn my head,
Somehow knowing what awaits my heart, to where I am being led.

I hear birds so sweetly singing, see a sky so dazzling blue.
Certain now my tomorrows will be dedicated only un to you.

You have opened up this grateful heart, to things both known and new.

Thoughts never acted on,
until that unexpected day
You bent down and you did whisper, You knew just what to say.

Finding out how much I can love
The person that I am,
was part of your gracious gift to me, part of your all knowing plan.

Going forward now with a peaceful heart, I can give that love to all.
Nothing I do escapes your seeing, all things both great and small.

Please take me where you want,
I will follow where you guide.
My heart an open vessel, where no doubts or fears might hide.

Somehow I have found these words,
and have finally found my voice.
It is to YOU and YOU alone, my heart does now rejoice.

You see into that heart,
what more is there to say?
With you inscribed inside it now, this child can never stray.

Thank you for my gifts,
. ..thank you for that very special day.

Friday, June 5, 2009

I don't know what is the greater frustration...wanting desperately to know what lies for us on the other side,....or having seen a glimpse of it and having to stay behind until being called once again to enter it's realm.

The tsunami is coming, I can feel it in my heart,.....I can hear the distant roar of the thundering mass,.........not water, but the universe,.... it will wash me away in it's awesome wonders.

My journey is only beginning.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

I find I am like that of a small wide eyed child waiting for Christmas day to begin.
Each day is a new gift, a new present to open and share. So many magical gifts and miracles within each day.

Was I given a fresh new pair of eyes to see it all with?
I was given something, that is for sure.
Now I live my life in a state of constant gratitude.

So much love.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

more nightime 5-14-09

I was "told" my heart would be filled.......but I had no idea to what extent.
I am humbled by HIS overflowing generosity.

It is truly amazing!!!

night time thoughts 5-14-09

I am learning how to dance again...my heart is learning how to soar!
Closing my eyes I let the music slowly carry me away.
The universe has taken my hand and asked me to dance.
It is a dance of love and I sing in unison to the music... with my heart!
I have never had the words before..... to say what is truly inside my heart.
Perhaps on this new journey of mine I will find them.

I can use them as stepping stones to find my way home.
Where I go next I do not know.......But my heart is packed and ready for the Journey :-)

My musings to the Universe

How many more tomorrows will I have?
How many more chances to be the person I think is inside my heart?
How many more mornings will I be able to have those few sweet moments of solitude to watch the day day begin?

How many more times will I stumble or fall yet I am still looked upon with kindness and patience, until I can walk upright forever?

How many more tears will I shed, or times will my heart be pulled under by the burdens this life seems to bring?

How many more times will I be LOVED completely.......before I fully understand?

Saturday, May 16, 2009

Its a difficult thing to talk about when youve seen some of the other side. Though many would pass it off on some of those good drugs provided to me while in my coma, only I know for sure that it happened. Only I know for sure how it has changed my being.

I'm now trying to get some of the words out so that I may share some of that experience to others. Not one second of my life since then, has inwardly been the same. How to describe how that is????? But I am trying, and in the stillness of the night, or when I am so led, words and thoughts come to me, some I know, do need to be shared.

We all need to know that it is going to be "allright" what ever that means, to each of us.
My "allrightness" has come in the form of a peace and understanding beyond any known to me before. Did God finally show himself to me, ...well in a way - yes. Yet, it wasn't being shown, as much as it was to be a part of, the becoming ONE with. Feeling for the first time that I truly got a glimpse of understanding about what it means to be a part of that everything.
How totally cool is that?!!

So I will go on, letting it all unfold where it may. I use to feel so very protective about my private thoughts, yet in the knowing now, realize there are no private thoughts. My heart is open, I want to share that with any who may care to look within. I truly have left what I would call my comfort zone, by putting my heart on an open page, and yet by doing so I find a different kind of comfort, one that keeps me wanting more.........we will see.

Thats it, just a thought or two about where I am going with all of this. I must go now and start my day. Some musings from my recent journaling I want to put here, but will have to save that for another time.

Blessing and love to anyone who may ever somehow find this page

Friday, May 15, 2009

I think this is perhaps the first attempt at any type of poem since English class in High School. A few nights ago I couldn't sleep, and at three oclock in the morning when I was so over whelmed with what I guess was the "lightness of being", this is what I wrote. It is exactly where I was at the moment.

I Felt it Would Someday Happen

We bow to one another, you, softly take my hand.
We step into each others arms,
and dance away In music, to an unseen land.

You look deep into my eyes, to see what lingers there.
You see my love looking back at you,- no worries- no cares.
I look into yours, I see exactly the same,
The Love ,The Joy, The Feeling with no name.

With your arms around me, we slowly drift across the floor
Our Hearts melt together, and I feel myself no more.
For we have come together in this dancing in the night,
Two hearts as one, slowly whirling, - whirling towards the light.

The universe, our dance floor, lit, by a million shining stars.
The music I think, must be angels, singing from afar.
I know now, I can go on forever, - this dancing with me and you.
I felt it would someday happen - always something that I knew.

Thank you for tapping me on the shoulder that wondrous and beautiful night.
I smiled, - said YES, - I knew that it was right.
I felt it would someday happen - always something that I knew.
Your love for me unending, as mine is now for you.
I felt that It would someday happen, always something that I knew.

Thank you God, for asking, thank you, through and through.
That I would someday dance forever, - knowing it would surely be with you.

Now I understand.

Words to my Soul / #1